I’ve been having terrible sleep for the past 2 months. I’ll be tired and not able to sleep and when I finally do nod off around 2am-3am I have to wake up at 7:30am to get ready and head to work. I, like most people, do not do well with little to no sleep. I am one of the crankiest people when I don’t get enough sleep. To make matters worse even when I do manage to wrangle 7-8 hours of sleep I’m still not rested. People have said “well maybe you’re sleeping too much”. Hmm lemmi think getting 3-4 hours sleep a night average for 2 months and then getting a few extra hours on the weekend is too much sleep huh? Fuck that!
I am run down, I’ve been fighting off a cold/sinus infection for weeks, my bodily systems are all wonky and my brain will not turn itself off. Then last night it hit me “Bunny you’ve got insomnia!”. For the first time in 3 years. Thanks alot, when I was a teenager I could pull the all nighters and function with maybe an hour’s worth of sleep tops. I’m too old for that shit now, I can manage it maybe 1-2 nights a month and that’s if I wanna go out and party or stay up till sunlight playing WoW. Other than that not getting enough rest has brought on a light case of depression. The fact that I know I’m depressed makes all the difference. Yes, I’m giving people some serious attitude but it’s better than breaking down and bawling “Oh poor me I’m unloved, the world is shit” and blah blah blah. Depression I know you’re there and I’m gonna kick your ass.
I’ve started leaving my windows open so I can wake up naturally. Waking up to the sun rising on me is much better than an alarm clock. Staying hydrated and kicking my Redbull habit in the ass are also important. Falling asleep and waking up have gotten progressively more difficult over the past 2 months and I wake up no less that 3 times each night. I don’t know what to do. I can’t take sleeping pills for the simple fact that they work too well. One Excedrin PM and I’m out for 13 hours or some other ridiculous length of time.
I think I’m just gonna stick to listening to Flyleaf and Enya to fall asleep and hope this insomnia clears up on its own. If it doesn’t then G-d help the world it ain’t gonna be pretty.
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